miss sally

ok so i told you that i had a play day on Sunday...well it was a night mare!
we get there and i saddle my horse that went fine no problems at all. since we took five horses i moved to the next one so i was brushing Dillon when miss sally decides that she wants to through something up (yellow snot) nasty i know. it scared me so i thought i might not should ride her she might be sick. Tell my aunt what just happened and she said it would be ok just don't push her to hard. then my bubba came over and we asked him what to do and he said ask frank so we did and well he said ride her she will be ok. yeppers that means i had to ride shit fire i thought i was going to get out of it...hell no. anyway we do our first run and did ok not the best but ok. then it came time for the real thing.....and you know it... she would not let me get on her for anything. they are calling my name and people are yelling at me and i still cant get on her. so they go to the next runner and i have to get on a crazy horse to do my run. and i stayed in the saddle thank the Lord. but from that moment on my horse acted stupid all day. i did not place or anything other than made every run that i signed up for and did my best. lets hope for better next time......

my week....

I know i have not been good about writing here lately. I have been busy with my home life....i know there is not much of one but it is there. so i will catch you up on everything now that i have some time on my hands.
Monday...i don't know what i was thinking but i quite my job. just left when i went to put out my signs and never went back. like i said i don't know what i was thinking...i wasn't i guess. so when i got home i was talking to a friend and she told me she knew a guy that she thought i would like...(hell yeah another man for me to play with) that is what i was thinking....so later that day my aunt and i decide to go ride(horses) while we were riding the mystery man calls...my thoughts....super sweet, sexy voice,nice, sounds cute....i talked to him for a few and asked if i could call him later because i was riding. so we get home and decide that wal mart was calling our names. so i called the mystery man back and every much enjoyed talking to him. so we get to wal mart and spend to much money like always...who does not get out of there without spending $50 or more a trip. anywho we get home and i go to bed...that was my EXCITING day.
Tuesday....i got up drank coffee (coffee coffee coffee) lol. watch desperate housewives...for two hours. great show i would say watch it. then i took a shower and made a hair apt so i could get it colored. i love the color it is a brownish blonde(high lights) if you were not understanding.(my aunt pointed this out to me. when i got home from that adventure we went to wade arena for Brittny and Christie to ride in a jackpot (running barrels for money). chilled there talked to the mystery man some here and there. his house got broke into and i got to hear all about that..not that i don't care i do but come one the same story for an hour..yeah i cant handle that one. came home and stayed at my aunt's house that night.
Wednesday.... got up drank coffee, and you know it watch desperate housewives again( you should really watch it if you don't). mystery man did not go to work...shame shame....so he sent me a text asking me what i was doing that day. all i said was laundry. yeppers you guessed it he became a GUY...and did not ask me to do anything. if you ask me there was a hint in there that said if you want to see me then ask and i will make it happen will he did not get that hit, like i said he became a guy. so while i am doing laundry and watching tv like a bum my friend(the friend that wanted me to meet mystery man) called me and was asking me what i was doing and i told her the same thing. i also added in there that mystery man was home. she asked why we were not together doing something. told her my end of the story and she said she would call me back...5 mins pass and she calls telling me that mystery man was going to call and asking me to do something with him...sure enough he calls while we are talking so i get off the phone with her and talk to him....he come and gets me and takes me bowling and to WAL MART (yes i did get out of there without spending $50 or more GO ME!) he brings me home and i thought i could see mystery man again. so my family all got together and had pizza for dinner (thanks nannie). they leave and my nannie and i watch a movie. after the movie was over i went to bed.
Thursday... i told my aunt i would help her with some play day stuff for Sunday. so i went to her house (next door) and started working on ribbons writing the events and age groups and dates on them. yeah i don't know how many i did i lost count after 50 or so. there was a lot. i sat in the floor from 10am to 830 pm working on ribbons. yes i got them all done(GO ME!). oh while i was working on ribbons i was thinking (i know scary) about mystery man and just know that there was nothing there and could not date mystery man at all. but me being me...i don't want to hurt anyone so i tried to find the best way to tell mystery man how i feel without being mean. MEAN IS BETTER! they get the message. so me being nice i send him a text saying "i thought i was ready for this but i am not. i would like to be friend. sorry just want to tell you now before someone got hurt." well in about an hour or so he calls and me being side tracked on the ribbons was not really talking and he told me he was shocked and sad but was glad i was honest. so a friend called and asked me to come hang out last night so i went and that was it.
Friday...watch desperate housewives ( you know watch it). my aunt called and asked me to mesquite and do some shopping (hell yeah shopping) so i got ready and if i do say so myself i looked cute today. and then i happens mystery man sends a text asking me to the movies. me wanting to see the movie but not with mystery man....so while i am texting back to mystery man my aunt informs me that i have plans all weekend (i did not know i had any) with that being said i had to tell mystery man no :( wait i was :) but i felt bad. grrr i hate that. so we got home and we all went to dinner...came home and now i am sitting here telling you about my week.
Saturday...going to get my aunt waxed...lol and some more shopping...and don't know from there.
Sunday....PLAY DAY!!!!!!!!! cant wait it is an all day thing. completely excited about that...i will let you know how it goes...

anywho i am done...i am going to go find something to do around here because i don't want to go to sleep yet.
I hope i did not bore you to much with my exciting week.

WATCH YOUR THOUGHTS, THEY BECOME YOUR WORDS.
WATCH YOUR WORDS, THEY BECOME YOUR ACTIONS.
WATCH YOUR ACTIONS, THEY BECOME YOUR HABITS.
WATCH YOUR HABITS, THEY BECOME YOUR CHARACTER.
WATCH YOUR CHARACTER, FOR IT WILL BECOME YOUR DESTINY.
BY:FRANK OUTLAW



YESTERDAY IS HISTORY, TOMORROW IS A MYSTERY, AND TODAY IS A BLESSING SO EMBRACE IT.

LOVE YA!
KISSES

life is short

i have found out just how short life really is. so i am challenging you do to something out of your comfort zone. something wild, crazy, just something different...talk to a stranger, kiss a random man, get a phone number just something that you woould not normally do...and then tell about it i am excited to see what happens and the feed back from this....i will tell what i did tomorrow...
and have fun doing it....
Kisses

to my love

to my love... i will never forget you or your love for me or the love i had for you. no matter where i go in life you will always be in my heart. the time we had was short but i was good along with the bad. but i would not change a min of our time together. you will never be fogot my love. i will hold you close in my heart. forever and always baby, forever and always. hugs and kisses.
I love you
your ladybug

my forever and always is no more

My forever and always is over. I am getting divorced on Monday. Yes it is a good thing and i am ready for it to happen. He was mean to me not mean but beat the hell out of me mean. So i know that i am doing the right thing and it is a good thing. But it still hurts and i know i put a smile on my face and act like it does not bother me when it does because i know i have completely failed at my marriage. It is like my dad said when one door shuts another one opens. I have no fears of this divorce because we have been separated for so long and i have made it just fine but the end is here now and wow i want to sit and cry and be thankful. So here is goodbye to my forever and always.



Love ya,

Kisses

remember

well i was talking to a friend last night and we started the funny remember when........ well there some that just that you had to be there and some that really made me think about all the good time so i thought i would share some on here.....

1) it was one night we Mickey, Me, Nikki, Carey, Greg, and Rodney all decided we were going to go the the clubs. Well Mic told everyone not to buy me anything to drink because i was a light weight. well my friends did not listen and i got well...don't think there is a word for how drunk i was that night....anyway we were leaving and Nikki decided that she needed to pee so what does she do you ask we she squatted right there in the court yard of all the bars and peed. well i went to the truck and got in the front where i always rode and shut the door well greg got but hurt and came to the window and called me some ugly words because i did not say bye to him. well i got out and gave him a hug and told me bye well when i got out nikki and carey got in the front so i got in the back with rodney and well he was drunk too and started play with my girls and well all the smoke and the girls being played with made me sick in mickey truck. we got home and he changed my clothes and put me in the bathroom and took care of me all night long or well until 5am well i decided i wanted to go to bed i cried and he held me and made it all better. i don't think there well ever be a night like that one or will ever live that one down.

2) Nikki, Me, and Rodney were all hanging out at mine and nikki's apartment. i was a normal Thursday night.....well there were some exception to that night but that is not here or there. But nikki and i wanted some cookies. so we sent Rodney to get them well he comes back with PINK COOKIES.... yeah we told him he was gay....he's not he is married now. but yeah i guess that was one you just had to be there for it to be funny.

3) Christie, Amber, Sara, Cj, JD, and Me all went out back road-ing one night and we were all drinking even the driver you that is not a good idea don't try it....when we found so hay bales. out of nowhere Amber says looks it boobies....talking about the hay bales. the next time you get a chance to look a round bale see if you see what we saw that night.

4) for my 23rd birthday Mickey, Carey and Nikki took me out.....what a night. Me and Nikki were the only ones drinking. that in its self should say enough. if not i will explain...well there rule is you have to drink your age that you just turned.....so 23 drinks (remember i am a light weight) so it started out ok until the shots started to come.... jello shot and two girls we raced and i won but we were so drunk. when we left it was ok until i got hot and started striping in the truck....yeah still cant find everything i had on the night prob still somewhere in mics truck. but that was another you had to be there moment.

just want to share so things on here i will prob regret them later but its all good.

Hugs and Kisses